Gabe’s tale~

hey im back here again..as u notice i will only write my blog wheneva im feeling down..im selfish rite..i dun share my happy moment but d bad ones r alwiz post up for ppl to read…well i guess ppl who read can juz take it as a story…
oh well im spending my life going thru lotsa barriers now…ups and down..juz like those waves in d sea
sigh..finally..going thru it..i nvr thought i wud come so fast..i thought im patient enuf and im gd enuf to not cause trouble ..who noes..hav to go thru it..welll at least i noe one thing..which i dunno whether its correct..not to tok to much..i guess d more u tok …things juz get started from words..r
i dunno whether im overprotective or wut…u can say wateva u want…but …i think im doing it rite,.is good for d relationship’s future…i learned abt give and take..and i only ask for loyalty…and i hope i can take it from her…and not only give..
i really wanna change her ..but there is lotsa arguements abt i shudnt change sum1 ..instead i shud luv her for her..but hey ..i do luv her..but is juz a slight change..is not a change dat will cause alot of trouble but juz think of d change ..it changes alot ..and is for d future..
i dun force anyone to change…anyway im also tired of consulting..i think i shall leave it ..anyway is  juz a matter of loyalty dat relationship will last…
im so confused …one day im in heaven and d next thing i found out i’ve drop from heaven to hell..
i juz cant beleive..i’ve done lotsa things which can actually make sum1 angry ..i wonder whether i did sumting wrong…but i juz follow wut u all said …juz do wut i think is right but no one seems to think its right….y is my fault everytime..
y??>…..mayb i shud burst out one day when im alone…and try to think back whether i did sumting wrong,…
im innocent ..u noe??innocent…..
i juz dunno how shud i write it..i wanna share it but not to everyone..so i’ll make it a surface tok on this blog…anyway ..god bless ..pls guide me..
hopefully i’ll hav a safe journey as im leaving auckland in 2 days..
will b sad..but  i think i can make her happy since she needs some space…space and more space..
well …all d  best to all…and haha advices  for readers..
-hav fun but at d mean time…pls noe ur limits…dun over do it…pls…
-notice wuts wrong and wuts rite…dun try to b urself…urself wont help u …
-play smart..and protect urself …image(not in style but habits) is important…dun let ur frenz judge u ..but judge by everyone.be cool……
-xcitements comes in lotsa ways…choose d right kinda xcitement…
cheerz..

sigh…time is passing real fast ..too bad how i wish i cud juz pause or even stop d time now..
wonderful moment alwiz ends real soon..
i dunno wut happened recently  my eyes deceive me..feel like im transparent ..apparently i dun need to speak out in words ..ppls can actually see thru me..i’ve been asking myself l otsa question…shud i make up my mind and make some decisions juz to help out or shud i juz keep quite and let everything flow as time goes by as though nth happened..
now i noe how izzit when u actually luv some1…evil act seems to hit it especially for jealousy …anyway if its for her i wud do anything..but juz make sure ur happy..i noe my blogs sounds abit wierd …cuz im a person who likes to keep things to myself but is hard not to tell anyone ..so im juz letting it out slowly..so if u can put urself in my situation..this whole thing will make sense..
life …time…seems like is going to end..anyway..im going to start skuling soon,..and work..godbless ..and for those for pray ..hope dat u cud pls pray for me too..i wanna b closer to god..i want to b a sucessful young man,..and i will work for it..juz need some mental support..