Gabe’s tale~

sienz ler went to orientation this wed and slept in d hall when those deans and head of library giving toks…i wonder whether those r speeches or juz reading wateva they put on d slide…sux who cares i juz fell asleep and wtf..i juz bcame popular sleepng in skul…
its from 9am to 3pm..lousy orientation..
and i hav to wake up at 6 30am to reach there around 8 30am
shit too early..they owe me a couple of hours of sleeping time.
engineeering course sux ler…hardly see any gals..got also square type..
but one thing..chem eng got most gals woo hoo…
hav to get lab coat sumore..
i saw business course those gals not bad..mayb shud downgrade to study business ..less studies and more gals.
2moro hav to wake up early to meet up wif a nice fren…cuz she will b going to penang around 10 30 am so hav to go for dim sum around 7 30 am…aiyo..dunno can make it anot..
if i FFK means im a damn bad person..nvr do dat to good frenz..
2 nite i went to pasar malam to get some cd’s ..aiyo damn Mm song cuz d price change ady now can only get 2 for 10bux …haha sienz but sttill i get 3 as usual..
2day im so tired went to pyramid to hav a look and went home for a nap sleep lke a pig ler.
yay 2moro im going for movies ..gonna watch d myth..my bziest week this week cuz after this im going to move out and lose all my entertainment..haha dunno wut can i do in my campus..all i noe is staying 1 floor below me is all gals..haha
but i think got sports centre and go CIO..
aiyo everytime i sit on doug’s car ..all we do is we tok abt dat and apparently dat is d thing which we will nvr forget to remind each other..
yea i noe we r cold now..i noe is hard to trust ppl nowadays..
if u got d chance y not b d player rite?..
instead of wut u r now..i noe u and me we face d same thing..dude is sad..let it b..
im pretending to b ok ..so u try ur best to look ok too ..
slowly we’ll feel better..*i hope…no guarantee of wut i say..take other ppl as example pls..
i so tired now..but still cant stop writing this ..nxt week onwards i might only post one a week or mayb 2 cuz i wont b staying here..haha im crazee i still think i can study well like i use to …i took one xtra paper ..on my 1st sem..haha nuts..
tell me one day dat i wont hear all this lies ler..so sick of it..
uni is ok ..but heard dat  there is cobra(s) around campus area
haha dat scary??..haha very rare case gua…and i didnt noe in malaysia killing cobra is against d law..haha anyone who doesnt noe it..u call urself malaysians??
haha
sux man..still not ready for skul yet too many things happened b4 skul starts …
its probably my fault again..*again..its alwiz me ler..
deng now i notice my previous blog was like flooded wif dos useless yet shitty comments..
haha..spoil liow..those bz body also came in ..didnt noe they read also ..
sighz today i heard a joke gau farnee..but can tell u guys ler..cuz joke muz b told by a happy person den only it will make it farnee if i tell u one u wont even think dat its a joke..its worse den a cold joke..
anyway u guys take care..
took a picture on my phone today …a very nice thing i saw ..
it says ..*love is abt saying sorry and forgiving…

well its been 3 days since i left KL and now im back to write my blog..haha nice comments from tiff..argh juz fucked it..i dun care wtf they wanna say..go ahead..yeap im writing my blog so im wrong..and for god sake i didnt misunderstand anyone duh…ur juz stereotyping me… haha wateva.
wut im suppose to go to sgp for a nice hol trip and juz b4 i left this phone call came in and d same old story ..then do u noe how it feels ..nxt time pls think b4 u do sumting pls..it feels like getting lock outside d door when its raining…
well i guess they nvr appreciate wuts been done for them..i actually txt sum1 trying to help her and there is no reply and wut now ur fuckin toking bhind me..traitor..*bitch…(its not u if ur reading this)
well i actually like this blog but might probably get my self another one..since this is so damn controversial…u noe but this blog is cool cuz it can hav pics inserted and ofcuz not to mention d updates…
damn gau tulan ady ler….
anyway oh yea i heard from roy dat day when i visited matta fair..oh sue vin actually reads my blog..aiks,…sorry to show u all this shit in my blog ya..erm its good to head dat there is ppl reading it thx..i didnt noe u read cuz i dun see comments .appreciate dat..
the sgp trip was kinda fun ..basically were juz backpackin..thx doug and ks for joining me on this trip..oh and most important thing is *thx kenny(doug’s uncle) for letting us stayover at his wonderful apartment in chinese garden…its fantastic thx for d yummy dinner ,d photography sesion and ofcuz d part i like d most d highspeed driving in his euroS honda..cool..
1st day we went to pasir ris water park …haha i think d best part is d ular-lah….its fun cuz u need 6ppl to b in dat big tube but we only got 3 so we still get to sit once wif 3 ppl but d second part was fun cuz its like we got 3 and another 3 strangers but wahlah,….damn big leh..r they fake??
then another cool one is d samsung …shit i forget wut ride is sumting like a tube where u can slide down in this tube but 2 person at once only..haha cool i went twice..haha as usual but if u gonna compare dat to sunway ..no match..
my god now im having sun burn and im darker…hopefully it wont stay long..im 2 tones now..
after dat we went to china town in sgp.dat place is a paradise..gals,food , and ofcuz shop till u drop..dat day was pre lantern fest so its very well setup and is good for taking photographs..
went home and meet up wif kenny and family and there we go again chinatown trip 2….haha went for this really nice and i bet expensive dinner ..haha 4 adults …7 dishes?? crazee but nice..oh plus dessert…
then we went to fullerton hotel to take pics and also d merlion …wonderful place.i find it nice for jiwang-ing or mayb a romantic place to hang out
Day 2 - woke up late..cuz d 2 lazy pigs …i hav to wake those 2 up everyday ..haha..went to get our return tickets from sgp…then head towards habourfront to sentosa…haha nice place well d man made beach is ofcuz d best..we watch d mexicana performance there lucky us..reach there juz in time for d 1st sesion..wow..didnt noe mexican gals r hot too…too bad no time to grab a pic wif them cuz they r at d changing room..i was wonderin shud i walk in to take a pic or wut..haha..since they r juz changing at d temporary made hut..then we saw this half court basketball at d beach..cool basketball at d beach ??…yay..so we played a some balls wif some strangers too…
show them how we malaysians play..haha.
then ofcuz photo snaping at scouting ..those babes in bikinis…haha sad those guys r juz not careful enuf to let their gf wear a lose bikinis..hehe..opps..
then u got kayaking …beach volleyball which i juz dunno how u gonna concentrate on playing volleyball haha when there is more than a ball bouncing…my god…
then after dat is underwaterworld..fishes fishes and fishes..
haih wat a gr8 place if only u can bring ur loved ones there it wud b one gr8 thing to do ..
then go home??…no its china town trip 3..haha went for dinner there and ofcuz shop shop…
all this lil things r so cute..
then home sleep like a baby…
-Day 3 .woke up late as usual but im still d earliest…and woke d two lazy pigs again..and went out to orchard road..woo hoo paradise…D FCUK line r way better than d ones u see here in Kayelle..
oh not to mention Zara..topman and song and kelly 21 from sgp..
juz cant hav enuf time to stop by every single ones as we hav to time our visit b4 its too late to go home..gr8 buildings…gr8 ppl…and gr8 kiasu mentality…shop till we drop again in orchard and is time to go home..went home pack our bags..get crazee at home..got a gift for kenny’s son Emil..
then now back to KL..thx julian for d ride home as well its so nice of u to come pick us up late at nite..
*wuts wrong wif feeling empty and lonely?i hav choices and its up to me to stay alone and i choose to b empty..i appreciate ur thoughts but dun say we r d same cuz were not..wut u do is not wut i do and u do it for certain purpose its ur choice cuz i dun ..i did it cuz i really wanna do it for u …get it?
sienz…

well im now at singapore in doug’s uncle’s place..thx to him a gr8 place to b ..nice apartments…gr8 views …done all our planning today its now 8am..so we still hav a long day to go ..and we juz arrived not long ago ..we arrived in singapore around 5 am and took a long walk to d mrt station…very cool VIP seats in d bus..and its a cold cold nite..thx doug for d jacket really appreciate dat..i wont b able to update my blog so often now cuz im now in singapore and my registration and orientation is rite after this trip ..so i’ll prob update u guys later on…

yea heard from roy my buddy dat sue vin actually reads my blog so thx alot ..doesnt matter whether u really read it but thx anyway ..its juz cool to noe dat there r ppl who actually read this blog..thx for d testi too…didnt expected dat…

well still i hav to say .my trip was suppose to b good but rite b4 d trip sumting jz happens to turn d thing real down and ruin d happy mood…im looking forward 4 sumting better ..since aug 6th i havent received any warmth regards or wateva …d view outside now is juz so wonderful..gr8 view from 19th floor..

oh yea ..talking abt love…i think i’ve said it to many times till it sounds like nth ..but its actually a word which is so powerful and meaningful..i’ll only say to sum1 which i really love..but it doesnt matter now since its like nth now…so i find it pretty hard to actually mention abt d word..cuz i feel so wasted mentioning it like there is no tomoro …

so nvr say u love some1 when u don’t mean it at all…and what hav been say can nvr be taken back..u might not see it nor touch it anymore but it will nvr stop being felt …

well im now at singapore in doug’s uncle’s place..thx to him a gr8 place to b ..nice apartments…gr8 views …done all our planning today its now 8am..so we still hav a long day to go ..and we juz arrived not long ago ..we arrived in singapore around 5 am and took a long walk to d mrt station…very cool VIP seats in d bus..and its a cold cold nite..thx doug for d jacket really appreciate dat..i wont b able to update my blog so often now cuz im now in singapore and my registration and orientation is rite after this trip ..so i’ll prob update u guys later on…

yea heard from roy my buddy dat sue vin actually reads my blog so thx alot ..doesnt matter whether u really read it but thx anyway ..its juz cool to noe dat there r ppl who actually read this blog..thx for d testi too…didnt expected dat…

well still i hav to say .my trip was suppose to b good but rite b4 d trip sumting jz happens to turn d thing real down and ruin d happy mood…im looking forward 4 sumting better ..since aug 6th i havent received any warmth regards or wateva …d view outside now is juz so wonderful..gr8 view from 19th floor..

oh yea ..talking abt love…i think i’ve said it to many times till it sounds like nth ..but its actually a word which is so powerful and meaningful..i’ll only say to sum1 which i really love..but it doesnt matter now since its like nth now…so i find it pretty hard to actually mention abt d word..cuz i feel so wasted mentioning it like there is no tomoro …

so nvr say u love some1 when u don’t mean it at all…and what hav been say can nvr be taken back..u might not see it nor touch it anymore but it will nvr stop being felt …

oh meizi thx for dat..i actually did realise but apparently i said sorry and things juz arent d way it turn out …its probably diff view and diff personality…i noe but its a blog ..not trying to point out whose wrong whose rite or being sacarstic is juz mayb throwing anger out here…
but i noe its hard i cant stop wut ur thinking or ur frenz..but if writing it would hurt sumone think of d person which is writing it…doesnt it hurt double…but i guess u wont noe too..
all i noe is dun worry juz stick to her and help her out..im ok
…dats y im so damn sad…deng…UN anot…
nvr realise one…
writing this is also damn controversial..
oh today is thursday…its d day dat im suppose to celebrate my frenz bday ..sam’s bday is on 919 but too bad im not here during 919…i’ll b at singapore..
damn blur now..blank in d head
argh…TBC …TBC…to b continue..
thx for helping me to get d shirt meghan…thx so much ..and guess wut..juz nice d shirt..
i owe u one..sry dat i didnt bring any smaller notes wif me..
-i suddenly like mms so much cuz its lke showing a special momento to a fren and share it wif them..
-u can change d whole world but nvr a person…a personality shows a person and every person is unique in its own ways..* i mean personality not habits..habits is diff thing..
keep dat in mind…
take care y’all …
wif tears…gabe..

ok well ..its alredy a month and a few days..
ok lets wish andy a happy bday 1st..hope dat u enjoy it ..sorry abt d cake smashing part..not my idea at all ..but count me in for smashing it at u ..honestly i admit i did it once..isnt it cool to cut a cake at steven’s corner …where lotsa ppl r there…d thai restaurant was cool …altho it turn out 300 bux!!!
wtf..
after d party it was gaming till 7am in d morning..definitely not enuf sleep ..
went shopping dat day again ..got myself another cap …its another abercrobie…
damn im so cheap skate wearing those cheap stuff..
haha cant afford more expensive brands tho..
yay congrats ppl …exams r done for 2 ppl..
ok friday is lantern fest for us..we r gonna rock like last yr?…or even better?
done d crap …and lets go back to d title..
so wuts up wif d title u guys might wonder…err CIO my nick too…
obviously it shows sumting ..to whom?? dats another story..
anyway ..see wut i mean?..
its so sad to notice dat u’ ve been totally forgotten ..dats even worse den anything..
well im not even gd enuf to b remembered..not even memories and wut sweet memories..wateva..
so im juz like a used file…juz put it in d recycle bin and recycle it..
and wtf,…of all its me dat she choose to forget…so everything dat happened is nth issit? gr8
sighz..juz hope dat she is happy ler..
i went to karaoke today ..
it was gr8 singin for 5 hours..erm its 5 and a half..
neway rox forget abt red box..
time juz fly by and im going back to skul..can u believe it??…skul…i miss skul..
oh i seriusly need to thank this special fren of mine..
christine..thx for d dedication..
i’ll do u a favor to promote ur blog..anyone which got time to spare u can alwiz view my friends blog…christine had recently dedicated her recent post for me so thx..
is juz so sick thinking abt it..well i didnt hav enuf rest lately..
not working still not having enuf rest..
my god wtf is wrong..simple encouragment juz helps so much …
anyway its all past…oh well jz incase ur still wonderin whether i love u dat much ..its yes..
but is ok now..since to u its nth but another guy which jz love so blindly..*so hai
ok..
singapore trip in a couple of days more..
lets juz pray dat we make d best out of it..
2day i was sitting in McD’s in times square looking at those rides..wow wut a gr8 sight to b seen..
flashback of those "happy momento"..dunno whether she’s happy mayb she is mayb she is not..mayb she had been thinking of u noe wut during d trip ady..so ….^^
..learned a new word from doug while we were swimming …
its called jiwang…so it means flashback and sorta like day dreamin abt ur pass..
so he asked me not to jiwang anymore cuz he sees me jiwang-ing all d time..
well..all d best to y’all on no matter wut..
take care…regards..

well…wut happened today ..i slept alone last nite as usual in this empty house of mine..but sumting worst happen is juz dat i slept on d floor instead of d bed cuz i dun hav a bed..d bed has been moved to d new house..
its dinner time and i shud actually hop over to my new house to hav dinner since my parents bought me food..but im now writing this stupid blog…
im living in a lie…is juz so fake..
tomoro will b a big day for me…
im goin 2 represent maxis 2moro..doing a presentation to raja muda of perak…
sighz its a gd thing or a bad thing…forcing me to put on a smiley face which is so fake..
hopefully its going to b smooth..today d agung came to d show..sighz all d press r here ..havoc..
after work was so tired cuz last nite i slept around 3 and woke up around 7 30am..
juz like a walking stick..how i wish im juz a artificial intelligence without any feelings and can juz do wateva u want and make u happy ler…so dat i wont b sad got no feelings at all and u dun hav to care abt me at all…
sighz work for free ..deng 4 days..
shit bills bills …phone bills is juz klling me.
well …thx for coming over and let me sleep on ur car bonet engine,its so hot cuz u drove for quite sumtime ady and i slept on it outside my house..thx again keen seng..
everyone which is on exams all d best k??…
oh ..get well soon - sunny -
pay check pls b quick …dig sand again..
* d sadest thing dat u can hear from sum1 u love is …lies…
quote 4rm….Douggie.
cheerz guys…

so fast its been a month since she left me..
and juz notice d sweet memories * testi has been deleted..
well mayb this will help alot so dat she wont see it again and no one will noe how was it like b4..
its ok ..as long as she’s happy do wateva..
yea yea ..im juz so disgusting ..im so scary..       
think wateva..thinkin of it juz makes me so annoyed..
saijdsiohafiosjaskanfhasjfap’ksa…..argh to b continue…
sadyuas fiashdfip afh sa i

well..suppose to do this last nite but apperently ..bro is using d comp to do some mailing and im upstairs listening to music and notice i juz knockout and slept till now..
sighz..everytime i reached home from work im so damn lonely..im staying in an empty house d only living thing in my house is d dog..
my family juz moved to d new house..d fridge is at d new house i cant get my chocs..my milk..
damn..wuts going on..
happy bday goldwin..sorry to get u wasted dat day..its nice drinkin wif u ..one after another and kar sang..ur game juz shrink my balls…i havent been playing this kinda games for ages..
is juz crazee..but i guess keen seng is d happiest man on earth playing dat game after drinkin he got d guts to do wateva ..he got d gals name and number..
ah beng cheer up i noe how u feel when u start to appreciate sum1.but its a lil too late to notice dat..so hope dat its a lesson and try to appreciate d ppl around u more..when its urs hold it dun juz let it go …when u lose it ..not to say there aint any chance of getting back but its hard…so y choose d hard way ..
sorry but im not good at this so i shudnt giv u any related comments..im juz as bad..
mayb worst..
its sept d month where all d sad things happened juz passed..and i can see ppl showing smiles again..
its so nice meeting chee wai again ..
last nite’s basketball was quite chilling..juz hit d ball as hard as possible to release stress and anger ..lucky i got maxis stress ball from work …i throw d ball last nite b4 i slept and my neighbours was like they came out d house and ask me to stop making noise..crazee me..
opps…sorry sunny can go to penang this weekend as im going to celebrate a frenz bday…
wont b seeing him much so hav to meet up ..
oh cool doug..ur going to b alrite now…
its good to hear dat..well at least frenz..or a better fren…
sumore got nth to eat there..
i might stop blogging after skul opens..so probably i’ll juz send u guys msgs or mails..i mean for d ppl who read my blog ler…juz to keep in touch ..
shit i bought a abercrombie t last nite…
and miraclely it fits..juz nice..yay…
take care guys…c u around..

pls tell me dat its not tears dat is flowing out from my eyes..
shux…its 2:22am..and for fux i came online and notice wut i shudnt noe..
deng…its him..
i knew sumting was going on…dats y it happened..
this time when i knew it it hits me critically…
im feeling so shitty now..
well ..altho going to singapore is sumting nice..but i still cant get over it yet..
tomoro is goldfish’s bday and i’ll b going afta work and juz to drop by and say hi…
and off we r going to bangsar to get wasted..
i’ve been waiting …nth came..
and well my 3g phone is going to b collected back..
its a gd thing dat i wont hold d phone all d time and thinkin of calling …hesitating wheher i shud or not..and in d end LT*david screws me for dat…
sitting bside my phone day and nite..
i wanted to make one last call …but while i was making d call juz bfore i heard d ringin tone i put down..cuz its late overthere dun wanna wake her up..
so its been how long… im still hangin there wishing for a miracle to happen and also our wish to come true …mayb its juz my wish now ..cuz u might b saying it only…
i cant take it ..its late everyday and im bursting it out here..
if only blog is like a life journal probably i can get some 1 to rephrase everything and make it into a book…might b one gd book to read..
will giv losers some lessons..moral of stories and etc..
sweet tok and luv msgs r alwiz from guys …and me too yea i did those but i dun say things dat i dun mean..i’ll make its practical..
lies juz kills…miss u , luv u all these dun come in handy on msgs is only when u feel like telling sum1 or expressing d way u feel towards them then u feel like saying it ..so i guess mayb its bcuz when sum1 doesnt say it altho it doesnt mean dat u hate dat person but i can definitely say dat u dun really love them or miss them..action speaks louder den words but …when an action cdnt b seen ..words is d only thing..but i guess it doesnt matter since wut ppl nowadats r looking for is only action …running out of patience is one thing as well..but i shudnt b saying this cuz it sounds like im pretty gd but haah sorry im juz a sucker/loser or wateva u wanna call it..
well juz read it wif a happy feeling and take it as a joke of d century…where u nvr seen any1 dat lame and stupid…or u can take it as a gd example of being a loser…
coming up plans is nxt yr april…might b doing sumting big..wait till u see..
sorry for saying all these totless words..silly me feeling shitty and bursting out stupid blog..
sorry chris for not replying ur msg nicely..bad mood..
im going to black out soon…catch up wif u all sumtime later..
-gabe-                                                                                                                ~loving u still….