3d2N at sgp..
well its been 3 days since i left KL and now im back to write my blog..haha nice comments from tiff..argh juz fucked it..i dun care wtf they wanna say..go ahead..yeap im writing my blog so im wrong..and for god sake i didnt misunderstand anyone duh…ur juz stereotyping me… haha wateva.
wut im suppose to go to sgp for a nice hol trip and juz b4 i left this phone call came in and d same old story ..then do u noe how it feels ..nxt time pls think b4 u do sumting pls..it feels like getting lock outside d door when its raining…
well i guess they nvr appreciate wuts been done for them..i actually txt sum1 trying to help her and there is no reply and wut now ur fuckin toking bhind me..traitor..*bitch…(its not u if ur reading this)
well i actually like this blog but might probably get my self another one..since this is so damn controversial…u noe but this blog is cool cuz it can hav pics inserted and ofcuz not to mention d updates…
damn gau tulan ady ler….
anyway oh yea i heard from roy dat day when i visited matta fair..oh sue vin actually reads my blog..aiks,…sorry to show u all this shit in my blog ya..erm its good to head dat there is ppl reading it thx..i didnt noe u read cuz i dun see comments .appreciate dat..
the sgp trip was kinda fun ..basically were juz backpackin..thx doug and ks for joining me on this trip..oh and most important thing is *thx kenny(doug’s uncle) for letting us stayover at his wonderful apartment in chinese garden…its fantastic thx for d yummy dinner ,d photography sesion and ofcuz d part i like d most d highspeed driving in his euroS honda..cool..
1st day we went to pasir ris water park …haha i think d best part is d ular-lah….its fun cuz u need 6ppl to b in dat big tube but we only got 3 so we still get to sit once wif 3 ppl but d second part was fun cuz its like we got 3 and another 3 strangers but wahlah,….damn big leh..r they fake??
then another cool one is d samsung …shit i forget wut ride is sumting like a tube where u can slide down in this tube but 2 person at once only..haha cool i went twice..haha as usual but if u gonna compare dat to sunway ..no match..
my god now im having sun burn and im darker…hopefully it wont stay long..im 2 tones now..
after dat we went to china town in sgp.dat place is a paradise..gals,food , and ofcuz shop till u drop..dat day was pre lantern fest so its very well setup and is good for taking photographs..
went home and meet up wif kenny and family and there we go again chinatown trip 2….haha went for this really nice and i bet expensive dinner ..haha 4 adults …7 dishes?? crazee but nice..oh plus dessert…
then we went to fullerton hotel to take pics and also d merlion …wonderful place.i find it nice for jiwang-ing or mayb a romantic place to hang out
Day 2 - woke up late..cuz d 2 lazy pigs …i hav to wake those 2 up everyday ..haha..went to get our return tickets from sgp…then head towards habourfront to sentosa…haha nice place well d man made beach is ofcuz d best..we watch d mexicana performance there lucky us..reach there juz in time for d 1st sesion..wow..didnt noe mexican gals r hot too…too bad no time to grab a pic wif them cuz they r at d changing room..i was wonderin shud i walk in to take a pic or wut..haha..since they r juz changing at d temporary made hut..then we saw this half court basketball at d beach..cool basketball at d beach ??…yay..so we played a some balls wif some strangers too…
show them how we malaysians play..haha.
then ofcuz photo snaping at scouting ..those babes in bikinis…haha sad those guys r juz not careful enuf to let their gf wear a lose bikinis..hehe..opps..
then u got kayaking …beach volleyball which i juz dunno how u gonna concentrate on playing volleyball haha when there is more than a ball bouncing…my god…
then after dat is underwaterworld..fishes fishes and fishes..
haih wat a gr8 place if only u can bring ur loved ones there it wud b one gr8 thing to do ..
then go home??…no its china town trip 3..haha went for dinner there and ofcuz shop shop…
all this lil things r so cute..
then home sleep like a baby…
-Day 3 .woke up late as usual but im still d earliest…and woke d two lazy pigs again..and went out to orchard road..woo hoo paradise…D FCUK line r way better than d ones u see here in Kayelle..
oh not to mention Zara..topman and song and kelly 21 from sgp..
juz cant hav enuf time to stop by every single ones as we hav to time our visit b4 its too late to go home..gr8 buildings…gr8 ppl…and gr8 kiasu mentality…shop till we drop again in orchard and is time to go home..went home pack our bags..get crazee at home..got a gift for kenny’s son Emil..
then now back to KL..thx julian for d ride home as well its so nice of u to come pick us up late at nite..
*wuts wrong wif feeling empty and lonely?i hav choices and its up to me to stay alone and i choose to b empty..i appreciate ur thoughts but dun say we r d same cuz were not..wut u do is not wut i do and u do it for certain purpose its ur choice cuz i dun ..i did it cuz i really wanna do it for u …get it?
sienz…
September 19th, 2005 at 12:33 pm
wow look like u had a gr8 trip there ..aww..so u get to noe lotsa gals?..do show me everysingle pic of gals u noe there ok? R u ok dear?..huggies..
hate to see u down like dat..u noe when i 1st noe u ,u do things as if there is no barriers at all.ur so confident..and now look at u..
wut for feeling down for sum1 who doesnt care and look at her she is enjoying her own life regardless of ur feelings..ur probably juz a passer by to her ..im sorry to say dat..and ur frenz there they r probably juz a so call “fren”..u noe wut i mean ..
dats y sumtimes i hate u for being too good to everyone..u juz try to make them happy..and now d person which u love most and probably doing d most for thinks dat u juz wanna make her happy ..i noe ur not faking it..if not u wont even do it..cuz i dun see u dat happy b4 in photos..well u can keep them now since she probably trashed everything..i still kept ur car magz wif me..haha..yeap u got it rite when u say d word out bitch to whoeva…serves them rite.
get well soon and reply my msg asap…looking fwd for dat..
haha i like d video u took ..haha cute toy u hav there…when r u getting one for me..:P take care my dear..
muacks~^^
September 19th, 2005 at 12:34 pm
wah got sg no buy me stuff teng…. j/k
September 19th, 2005 at 1:02 pm
wah lau gabe, i’m not saying you shouldnt express your feelings on the blog larhh!!
cheer up laaa. i was just saying what i said last time as a friend. dont read too much into it kay? anywayz, i’m glad that things are settled and that you’re moving on 
September 19th, 2005 at 6:33 pm
yes joan, i trashed everything! thanx for telling me…altho u didnt know much of my story! and pls dont say something bad about my frens..u dont know them and u dont know me too…
plus..this is our past,our story…why would everyone wants to be part of this…i think this is ridiculous…
and to be honest…i am happy with my life..i am always happy with watever i have..with u or without u..i am the still the same..we jz dont clicked tats all…yes i did something reli bad tat hurt u alot and i admit i was wrong and i was sorry but wats done is done..i cant take it back..life has to go on…i reli dont care wat u write in here now as long as u r happy…get it? if u want to express ur feelings and anger here,go ahead..i can do tat as well but wats the point of doing it…reporting to everyone wats going on in my life..ppl will either pity u or laugh at u..or give advices or supports…but in the end its still up to u to decide…if u still want to keep this friendship…act like a man..not a kid..otherwise we’ll have difficulty to communicate nxt time…if u dont want..tats fine with me…i’ve done my part.
enjoy ur holiday gabe…take
care…
sienz…
September 19th, 2005 at 7:58 pm
Yes yes, I know u r deeply hurt and its hard to get over it..and expressing ur feelings and anger here is the only solution to makes u feel better…jz bcos of one miserable me makes ur whole life so empty..wat about me then…i was in a mentally abuse relationship, a sexual abuse relationship before…do I go around n tell ppl how I felt??? Huh?? So wat, if I do tell…do u think they’ll pity me…I don’t think so..they’ll be laughing at me cos I was the one who let it happen…ya..my ex always come to me for sex and I let him cos I want him back..i want him to be happy..i want to please him so tat he’ll want me back although I don’t enjoy the sex..and in the end..wat do I get? Nothing! Only cuts on my wrist..drunk in the morning…and worse of all, no one was there for me unlike u, gabe..at least u have frens to drink n smoke with! I was in pain for 3-4 months n no one knows I cried alone in the dark but in the end, I got over it! I was only 20, a pathetic young girl who thinks love is everything but eventually she learned to get up all by herself! Wat about u, gabe..a young man who has so many goals to achieve..still whining about his empty life! so, should I write down wat happen in my life..letting ppl know my past , my story… And now the doctor told me tat I have some kind infection tat has no treatment…if it doesn’t heal..i have to go for a special treatment and if it still there…I might have cancer..so wat happen if I do have cancer in the future..tell me wat to do?? Write in the blog telling ppl..oh my god..i got cancer..im dying..why is this happening to me..life’s so unfair! God..why u choose me??? N blah blah…!! Do u think it will help me?? NO! Maybe I deserve to get this shit! But life’s too short for all this thing! I jz want to go on with my Fucking Life! Do wat I am supposed to do…!!! As for u gabe, as u can see tat so many of ur frens do care about u…they even help u to backfired me…Jz wanna tell u tat..i’ve been there before..i know how u felt..u jz have to learn how to deal with it! Tats life! Do u see me complaining or whining of how unhappy I am…happy or not happy..still have to go on with ur life..so why not choose happy?? So pls, try to be more considerate…u said u never backstabbed me…but by doing this..u r already backstabbing me…Think before u write..
September 19th, 2005 at 8:09 pm
what the fuck bitch. dont say anything if you dont know her kay? i’m only calling you bitch because of what you said, but i wont judge you joan. get to know ‘her’ before you trash her! and if you want gabe so much, why arent you with him huh?? trash. sorry gabe, u know i’m not a ‘fighty bitchy’ kinda person, but what joan wrote is OUT OF LINE!
September 19th, 2005 at 8:13 pm
all relationships have their ups and downs, and some succeed some dont. its a way of life. do you really expect gabe to be HAPPY after breaking up? of course not!! everyone’s not happy after breaking up! get real joan. gabe is at least moving on, and joan, honestly you should not write about someone you dont know. Whats more, you dong even know their relationship! i am not being mean or anything, but what you wrote is bullshit.
September 19th, 2005 at 10:34 pm
Hey gabe its cK here just to let u know i’ve been reading ur blog for quite sometimes and i din really wrote any comments becuz i guess i’ve been thru wat u r going thru now n i know its tough n im not gonna comment much on ur r’ship with her because i dunno u n her well enuf as well as ur r’ship but somehow i read wat joan wrote here n really cant stop myself from giving my comment out…joan…u might knew gabe for a long time but i can say u dont know her as well as her frens and me of cuz..so why are u being the “batu api” if u r smart enuf to know wat i mean..as a fren u’re supposed to support someone..be there for someone and not doing wat u’re doing now..this is so pathetic..maybe u’re trying to win gabe’s heart or maybe not but this is not the way…get real joan..do it the correct way…think of a proper way joan…why wanna make urself more enemies instead of frens?gabe im not sure what u’re thinking of me but as a guy im not gonna comment on you, like i said i’ve been thru it and time will heal everything…
September 20th, 2005 at 10:21 am
wuts wrong wif this?..y is everyone trashing each other here..wut?? me again?..im moving on slowly mayb not as fast as u ..u do u hav to say dat im not moving on..duh…
i noe u got a gd life..
wuts wrong wif dat?…im juz writing a blog k?..wut u mean by no point writing a blog..juz bcuz u dont doesnt mean there is no point..is juz part of my interest blogging..dats all..not to wut bad mouth u ..i share my hols wif ppl here too..my blog is basically abt hols and u guys only get to d issue of me and d relationship ..ok..i noe is my fault ..im like a kid i blog and u think im trying to earn pity from blogging and im bitching..yea rite is dat wut u think ..? nvm ..didnt i tok to u nicely dat day?..we r still frenz..so wuts wif all this..is not me dat dig up d pass rite? i tried to d wateva i can now..sorry to cause this..
i noe Jo is rude and let me apologise for creating this damn blog..did u guys read abt d trip?..or juz d starting and d ending and d comments..
did my frenz backfire u?..wuts wrong wif all this..i nvr ever wanted to see u angry ..when im wif u ..did i ever let u get hurt b4?..i will do wateva i can to make u happy and wateva mayb u dun noe ..but its ok..i can tell u ..im fine so dun worry and i dun do things bhind ppl…im not trying to let everyone noe wuts going on..d only way is to stop bloggin since u hate it so much ..im backstabing u?? ok ..its my fault..happy?
September 20th, 2005 at 5:24 pm
gabe, she is not trying to blame you. it is ynderstandable tat you r upset. but you should really read your postings and dont blame anyone for wat happened. nobody blames you. and you still have friends that care about you, including me, and of course her. Most of the comments above are probably caused by your stupid friend joan, thats all. she should know an individual before judging them. thats all we’re trying to respond to. i think you should keep writing your blog, it IS YOUR blog afterall. but dont blame anyone, it does no good.
September 20th, 2005 at 7:17 pm
i know my comment was reli harsh..but this comment was compiled from ur collection of blogs from start to now (mostly directed to me and u cant denied that)and since Joan said something rude about me,im sorry i cant help it. I wont stop u from writing ur blogs, its ur right..but u should stop writing about me or whether im happy or not..why not talk about ur frens..im not here to prove to ppl tat im having a good life or moving on and enjoying my life, so i dont expect u to do it for me…do u understand now? hope u r happy? happy now?
September 20th, 2005 at 11:04 pm
okie guys..i know things r getting out of hand here..so i guess i should say something to clear things up..dont wanna make it worse..sorry gab,for trashing ur blog..but sometimes i also cannot control my feelings.. after all we r humans..
anyway,jz wanna let u know tat as a good friend or gal-fren or watever..i do still care for u..
i know u r tying very hard to move on and i know u can do it..jz learn to take it easy k..when u finally have let it go…u’ll realised that the world can be so beautiful..so when u look back at ur past..u’ll smile n not sadness or regrets…cos this is how i feel now…i dont have regrets for this relationship cos its already been part of my life n urs too…this is our story and no one can wipe it out away from us…
September 20th, 2005 at 11:08 pm
And im reli happy to receive ur msgs this afternoon,at least i know we r still friends and not fighting again..=)
so..we r cool now?
September 21st, 2005 at 11:53 am
sighz…
September 21st, 2005 at 8:26 pm
mahai..u sighz wut orr?
dunno lar ..damn dizzy seeing all this ..afterall is me la..
LT as usual lor
say things like dat wut to do ler..listen like a dog ..haha..
September 21st, 2005 at 8:27 pm
dunno to smile or to wut la..damn 7 sienz…
u’ll nvr noe wuts nxt
September 21st, 2005 at 8:39 pm
haha i like to sighz.. dont like to gib comment. wut the use gibing comment? its either more ppl like wut i say? or more ppl hate wut i say, haha so best is keep quite n read ;p~
sighz … the loneliness
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (You only)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time, so lonely)
Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don’t see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again
September 22nd, 2005 at 6:09 am
well is a nice one dude..
let me tell u wut..
i dunno whether its true but i guess is still one sided ..
wut our story..its all been deleted no memories at all and how can u say its our story leh?..
dunno ler its juz so confusing rite?..so probably ur rite like wut u wrote also ..take care dude..be cool ..
September 22nd, 2005 at 5:07 pm
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I jst find the comments here rather funny. “It’s ur blog, u can write whteva u want.” but got disclaimer: as long as u dun write abt ABC, u can write anythg else.
1 of my frenz told me the same thg too. She went “Tif!!! Did u write abt me in ur journal? C told me he knew abt my stuffs frm ur journal. Dun write abt me in ur journal!” Ermm…. 1) my journal ain’t public, 2) whose journal is it supposed to b again??? So confused. Haha!
Hey, sounds like a nice trip. Pix? Yeah! Go show ‘em wht M’sians r made of. Muahah!!
September 22nd, 2005 at 6:10 pm
yeah ur juz rite..pix ..u wanna see em’ ??