im not crying…
pls tell me dat its not tears dat is flowing out from my eyes..
shux…its 2:22am..and for fux i came online and notice wut i shudnt noe..
deng…its him..
i knew sumting was going on…dats y it happened..
this time when i knew it it hits me critically…
im feeling so shitty now..
well ..altho going to singapore is sumting nice..but i still cant get over it yet..
tomoro is goldfish’s bday and i’ll b going afta work and juz to drop by and say hi…
and off we r going to bangsar to get wasted..
i’ve been waiting …nth came..
and well my 3g phone is going to b collected back..
its a gd thing dat i wont hold d phone all d time and thinkin of calling …hesitating wheher i shud or not..and in d end LT*david screws me for dat…
sitting bside my phone day and nite..
i wanted to make one last call …but while i was making d call juz bfore i heard d ringin tone i put down..cuz its late overthere dun wanna wake her up..
so its been how long… im still hangin there wishing for a miracle to happen and also our wish to come true …mayb its juz my wish now ..cuz u might b saying it only…
i cant take it ..its late everyday and im bursting it out here..
if only blog is like a life journal probably i can get some 1 to rephrase everything and make it into a book…might b one gd book to read..
will giv losers some lessons..moral of stories and etc..
sweet tok and luv msgs r alwiz from guys …and me too yea i did those but i dun say things dat i dun mean..i’ll make its practical..
lies juz kills…miss u , luv u all these dun come in handy on msgs is only when u feel like telling sum1 or expressing d way u feel towards them then u feel like saying it ..so i guess mayb its bcuz when sum1 doesnt say it altho it doesnt mean dat u hate dat person but i can definitely say dat u dun really love them or miss them..action speaks louder den words but …when an action cdnt b seen ..words is d only thing..but i guess it doesnt matter since wut ppl nowadats r looking for is only action …running out of patience is one thing as well..but i shudnt b saying this cuz it sounds like im pretty gd but haah sorry im juz a sucker/loser or wateva u wanna call it..
well juz read it wif a happy feeling and take it as a joke of d century…where u nvr seen any1 dat lame and stupid…or u can take it as a gd example of being a loser…
coming up plans is nxt yr april…might b doing sumting big..wait till u see..
sorry for saying all these totless words..silly me feeling shitty and bursting out stupid blog..
sorry chris for not replying ur msg nicely..bad mood..
im going to black out soon…catch up wif u all sumtime later..
-gabe- ~loving u still….
September 2nd, 2005 at 4:22 pm
sei mei? when a guy leak a tear for a gal, that means the heart very painful already,but when the girl dont feel any pain….then whats the point leaking for her? nor does she care about yur tear or care but scare cuz u will do stupid tings for her. Its about time to take it to the next level… move onnnnn brooo…… i did the same…so can u ;p~
An angel is hard to find,and when u found it,u taught u could go 2 heaven 2geter, Not knowing that the angel have found another companion, u do not need to drop to hell. All you have to do is pray for her happiness and health. I did the same, so could u. Its not the love that matters but the happiness of someones life. Woooo Hoooooo started to tok kok again, anyway im not goood in love, cuz i have no idea wut is love all about until now. No matter how hard for you to forget about someone, it can be done, i know its not easy, and sometimes u think about that person, but u knoe wut i do? i just pray for their happiness and i move on, cuz there no meaning turning bek, when i get bored, i look at all old picture, not to cry or shed a tear, but to enjoy the best memories we did 2geter. So sometimes being a sissy is not being gay, but to show the true form of u.
U knoe wut is my suggestion?
move on a explore new world ;p~ so many angel out there, if u cant find one now, its oke, eventually u will find the rite one in the future. Cuz i believe what comes around goes around ;p~ wooo hoooo
September 2nd, 2005 at 4:26 pm
OOOOoooO so many typo error ;p~ mind my english ;p~ i havent been reading lately lolx ;p~
September 4th, 2005 at 3:33 am
watever huatster is saying..its quite true..dont shed anymore tears..its not worth it..pls be happy…like he said…jz remember the sweet memories and not the sad one..
if i dont care for u..would i be even bothered to check ur blog?
ur frens might hate me but i cannot stop wat they think of me..all i can do is to hope everything is alrite for u.. take care~
September 4th, 2005 at 8:10 pm
err..
thx anyway .take care too.
huatster..how can u intrude my blog like dat..its like ur writing ur blog ady..
deng..haha
September 4th, 2005 at 11:44 pm
Haha! Funny… ur comment about Huaster. He needs his own blog, ay?
I like what he’d said in paragrapgh 2 tho’… altho’ I dun think we can entirely 4get any1…. they just stay out of our minds. Who’s to say we need to 4get to move on? I say take the lessons n the sweet memories, so that u’ll knw what’s “right” when u’re ready to ’start’ anew.
“Smile! B’cos u nvr knw who’s falling in luv with ur smiles!”